Sometimes, I think we just need a moment to vent and sometimes it’s either not a good idea to vent directly to another person or even speak out loud at all.
Today is one of those days. I need to get things off my chest but I just don’t want to put anyone through the direct impact of it.
Bottom line, I know I’m not perfect. I know I make mistakes and probably more often than I care to realize, make bad decisions. Good intentions do not mean anything when it’s time to fess up to the wrong choices. It doesn’t matter how good of a person you think you are, if you are not making decisions that prove you’re a good person, that tends to get muddy.
The one thing I have always done, until just recently, is make decisions about my own life, based on how it would make other feel. I am now at a point in my life, where everything has finally tumbled to the ground because it’s not my foundation I was building this whole time. I finally learned that while I was so busy trying to build the foundation for others so they had something to stand on, I looked down and realized I was still standing in my own dirt.
Not anymore. I have to start building my own foundation. I’m no spring chicken and I definitely have a lot to work on. It’s time to do things for me. I won’t be any use to anyone including my children, if I don’t work on me. So, instead of worrying about how others feel and basing my decisions on how others might feel, it’s time to close that option for them. I end up giving them power over my life when I do that and obviously that has gotten me nowhere.
Today is a new day! Today is mine! Just like this day was given to everyone else, this day was given to me as well. And what I do with this day, whether it be physical progress or mental progress, it’s mine to do with as I choose.
I CHOOSE ME!